hello sunshine

today a new day... a holiday...labor day... anxiety is setting in about going to work... will i have a job...will something better come along... suppose to go to ki grandmother's house but out of fear of being taunted i really dont want to go...sad but the truth is they hurt my feelings...their words do hurt me...<tear>...i am unhappy with  myself but i have no support for losing the unwanted weight and my depression just goes back and forth... i told my therapist i am fine, i smile and say i am ready to go back, i feel better but it is not the whole truth, i am still suffering... silently